Abused Child - Blessed Adult
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"My Personal Testimony"
I was born in El Paso, Texas. My dad was in the
booming oil field. We moved to where I live now at the age of 8 to Odessa,
Texas. Raised in a Christian parent's home I had my Salvation experience at the
young age of nine. I had been under conviction for some time, and then one night
in a service at our church I was spoken to by God. The next night the pastor was
asked by me and my parents to come over and talk about accepting the free gift
of salvation that Jesus had to offer. I received Jesus Christ and was baptized
at the age of nine. It was a wonderful experience and I felt God alive in my
heart for the first time. It was as though I could hear all the angels in heaven
rejoicing. As I continued to grow in the Lord I became more aware that he was
calling me into the ministry. Then one summer at the age of twelve I attended a
church camp for young people. At the end of the first day of camp it was time to
go back to the cabin. It was really dark for there was no lighting and I walked
with a friend and there appeared a bright light to the right of me. I could not
see this bright light but I felt it's presence. So as I continued to walk I them
realized this bright light was God as He was talking to me. God told me: Stephen
I have great plans for you. And I will prepare you and take care of you as you
do my service. I am calling you to be a minister of the gospel and to follow my
will as I have shared with you here. You just preach and evangelize for me and I
will take care of the rest. This totally blew my mind, and my friend could not
comprehend to who I was talking to, as he thought I was crazy. But as we
continued to walk I was able to talk to my friend and share with him what God
had told me He wanted me to do for my life. As we got back to the cabin and I
had this experience I was so excited I couldn't even sleep. I talked to the
pastor and told him the experience I had, and was ready to give my life to
Jesus. I dedicated my life that night to doing the Lord's will and his work. The
next night at invitation time I decided to go down and dedicate my life to Jesus
and His service.
As my life appears one filled with love and
normalcy, it wasn't. Because I was abused and my parent's never knew it was
happening. It started a chain of event's that caused and made my life develop
into panic, anxiety, depression, and loneliness. Though God had called me to
serve Him it did not eliminate the problems that I had. Being abused was a
horrifying event in my childhood, but with Gods help I made it through; Alive
and continue to serve Him as He wills me to do. Doing His will does not come
easy and does not eliminate the problems. But by the grace of God it Helps the
problems. Alot of people have asked me how can you serve God and have gone
through what you have and still have, and serve Him. But when God calls you to
do something for Him He takes care of you and provides a way. God only asks for
you to be available and that is the key to serving Him. I have answered His call
for my lifetime I am His and He is mine. Through His redeeming Blood and through
His Grace I am His. Jesus is the very reason I live and the very reason I
survive. I serve Jesus on the internet for He has called me to be His minister.
Though I may have the problems of panic,
depression and anxiety; Jesus still loves me. Jesus does not look at what we are
or what we have, He looks at the soul and the intentions of our Heart. He uses
the Least of us. "For you see your calling, brethren, how that not Many
Mighty noble, are called: But God has chosen the Foolish things of the world to
confound the Wise; and God hath chosen the WEAK things of the world to confound
the things which are Mighty;" 1 Corinthians 1:26&27. "For I
determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and Him
crucified" That your faith should not stand in the Wisdom of Men, but in
the Power of God" 1 Corinthians 2:2&5. "Jesus prayed~"I thank
thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, Because thou hast HID these things
from the WISE and PRUDENT, and hast REVEALED them unto BABES. Even so, Father;
for so it seemed good in thy sight" Matthew 11:25&26. "They that
are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came Not to
call the Righteous, but Sinners to repentance." Mark2:17. " are ye,
when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil
against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be Exceeding Glad; for Great is
your reward in heaven." Matthew 5:11&12. For if we had no problems,
would we need him? He knows our heart. Jesus I love you for how you loved me,
yet you came yourself to die for me. I also thank you Jesus for your loving hand
of forgiveness. Thank you for calling me to minister for you. Though I have
blemishes and scares You still use me. There is a story about 2 women. One woman
raised in a Christian home, as normal as can be considered normal; not alot of
changes, would say she was well adjusted, grows up to live for God and as most,
wants to get a taste of the world, but goes on and continues to live for God,
and lives a productive life handling the everyday stresses, and continuing on.
Then there is another woman, who is born into
abuse and neglect, and falls into the only pattern she has ever known; a life of
sin, looking to be loved and finding it nowhere, but doing everything she can to
find it. She wants desperately to Really live, but no one has told her how yet.
When she is 19, someone shares the love of Jesus with her and she Runs to the
alter to repent! She has finally experienced Unconditional love, what she has
been looking for all her life. She loves Jesus with all her heart, but she does
not have the social skills nor the understanding of what a quote so called
normal Christian is. She feels guilty for having emotional problems, she has
prayed and asked God to remove this thorn, and feels like she does not meet up
to what everyone else thinks she should be as a believer in Jesus. But in Gods
Great Mercy, He has a plan for this woman. He is going to use her pain for His
glory. You see she is the woman who came to Jesus at the Pharasee's house, and
fell to His feet weeping and began to wash His feet with her tears, and wiped
them with her hair. The Pharasee thought, "If this man was the Son of God
then He would know what kind of woman this is". And Jesus knew what he was
thinking to himself; and asked him a question. Now I ask you to find the answer
to this question by going to the book of Luke chapter 7:36-50 and find the
answer. You see the first woman is an over-comer. But the second woman is More
than an over-comer!
My prayer is that all who enter here will find
this a place of refuge, and mercy. For mercy surely triumphs over judgment. If
you do not know Jesus and want to know Him like I do please email me. That is
what I am here for! You cannot wait until you get your life together. You come
to Jesus Just as you are. Broken, sin and all! If you know Jesus but struggle as
this woman in the story; please email me. If you want to talk with another woman
I can lead you to the woman in this story. Jesus said He came to heal the broken
hearted. And he uses people like me and you.
~I offer you
Jesus~
May God Richly
Bless You!
A Servant For The King of Kings, Jesus Christ
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